What’s Latest With Me???

It was on Mother’s Day. I woke up and told my husband about my dream. I saw a baby girl sitting on the side of our bed. She was wearing a pink sleeveless dress with round neck and was sitting on her bottom. I could clearly see her eyes, her nose and her lips. Her hair was dark and her skin was fair. I was so amazed how detailed my dream was. I told my family and relatives about it. They even joke me maybe I am pregnant. For days, the dream keeps so vivid in my mind. So I decided to write a poem about it. Here how it goes…

I Dreamed of You…

I dreamed of you one night right on Mother’s day.

I saw your eyes, your nose, your lips, and your face, its all clear to me.

You were sitting on the side of the bed staring at us.

Your eyes were full of spark and curiosity.

I guess you were curious of us too.

Although I did not see you smile in my dream but in reality we will always make you smile.

You’re wearing a pink sleeveless dress with a round neck while you sit on your bottom. You got Asian eyes like I do, a cute nose and pink thin lips like daddy.

Your skin is fair, fairer than mine.

You are so beautiful.

I can’t wait to hold you in my arms.

Baby girl, when will God send you to us?

I’ve been waiting for the day, I would find out you are part of me.

Very soon, we will make a room for you in the house.

I can’t wait to get your stuff. I am so excited.

If you’re still with God, please let Him know we are excited to have you here.

We will raise you knowing Him and we will love you like how He has loved us.

When you come, I will start thinking of your name.

Could it be Lexine or it could be something else?

We will find baby girl, we will let you know very soon.

I will wait my dearest…

I will wait for you till then.

                                                                               With so much love for you,

                                                                                          Your mommy

The poem may sounds corny but not to someone who’s wanting to have a baby so bad. On the 22nd of this month (May), I found out I was pregnant! Was the dream was the sign? I asked God to show me a sign when it was time for me to have a baby.

After all those frustrating negative results it finally confirmed I am pregnant. The joy I felt was just undescribable. The excitement that I’ve been wanting to feel has finally felt. Although there are things that make me worry such as physical changes, stretchmarks and weight change, but knowing there will be another life breathing in me, I am willing to take all the chances. Afterall, what’s beautiful is having the greatest gift from God is having children!

I pray that I won’t have any misfortune of losing the baby. I want to keep it as it is. May God will keep it safe. I am excited to experience all the changes in me. I know it will be a very wonderful 9 months journey. I want a girl but whatever God will give us, we would gladly welcome it! Amos and I is looking forward for the day we will have the new member in the family deliver. He was excited and very supportive about it but his only comments… "I’m glad the pipe works." Oh, God bless his heart! He is just a very proud daddy.

I realized the job that I had at the Fort as cook helper was not for me. Not to discriminate others but I wasn’t happy as I expected to. Probably because I am more into challenges where I can improve myself professionally as a teacher, wherein I can work wherever there are children. So after I submitted my resignation, I applied to work in the School-Age Services at the Fort, where they have preschools and kindergarten. With no expectations for the job, I decided to substitute since I am qualified. Although it was a part time job, it was indeed very rewarding. I worked with High School, Middle School and Elementary. But since school is over, it means no job now except maybe on summer classes. But if there’s opportunity, it wouldn’t be that much.

This week I got a call for an interview at the School-Age Services. I don’t know what to expect and I wasn’t expecting at all. Their main priority is if you are a military wife. Unfortunately, I am not. I was 30 minutes early on my interview. But the director decided to start early anyway. As usual you know how it feels being interviewed. It’s nerve-wrecking but I tried to maintain my confidence. She asked me series of questions practically about the nature of the job I applied for. After the interview, she told me she will select the people whom she will be interviewing for the job. She gave me information about the services, the basic pay and so forth. I left the building with no expectations in getting the job. But I wish I got the chance to know how I did on the interview.

After two days, I got a call from a lady with different accent telling to come to the office (NAF) since I got the job. I forgot to ask her which building so I went to the building where I had the interview. But it was actually on a different building (470). When I got there, she showed me all the paper works I need to fill. She sent me more papers to work with and bring it back on my next appointment on Tuesday.

I heard the job has benefits since parents pay for the services. (NAF- Non-Appropriated Fund). They constantly have training for all the teachers, which the lady told me I can use whenever I’ll go. That would really be great! In the school, They offered so many activities for the children (3-4). Although the outside part of the building was not that attractive, you will be amazed to see inside it. It has so many sections where the kids can move on one to the another to have fun. The place is well kept too. Wow, I would just love working in this place.

My biggest prayer is may God bless me in everything I do. Even this job. I pray that I can get along well with the people I am working with and be able to build rapport on them. I would do my job as a teacher and abide on the rules. I would be the figure the kids can trust and respect. I would be an educator to them who will teach them the basic skills they will be needing everyday. I pray most of all that I would be a blessing in my work place, that they will see I have God’s favor in my life. May this job would just be the start of my career…